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[.magnarock.]

[darn i always confuse them. . hehe, on purpose]

Monday lunchtime. Gryffindor common room. Fairly empty. [the frantic tarts all seemed to be meeting in the great hall to imagine how it will look on the day]

'So much for everything being better now. I seem to be arguing with everyone. First Kyli suddenly decides she hates me. Then I go and ruin my friendships with Kik and Cenizo. . . Well, at least they like me now.'

But Kyli was still being distant.

'She never looks at me anymore, or talks to me unless she has to and it's in class.'

Through chewing his bottom lip thoughtfully, he sighed and hugged his knees on the sofa.

'What the hell have I done? I did absolubtly nothing to make her cross. She'd been sleeping, then woke up looking spaced, i said hello, waved at her because she didn't reply, and then bang! She goes and snaps at me, all full of hate.

He shuddered at the eyes he'd seen on her. Nasty ones, that held hate for his very existance. Not like ones he'd seen when having normal arguments, ones that had been put aside and forgotten.

Staring bleakly into the fire he mumbled to no one in particular.
"Why do you hate me ? . . . Is it because of something I've done or what?"

'Had I said something to make her like that? Did I, maybe, invade her personal space by waving my hand in her face? She'd said earlier she was concerned about that Tea- Tyakess guy.'

He frowned slightly.

[^^ i figured it's time to join the voice in your head club']

I swear I've heard his name before. Raika. . . Raika Tyakess. . . Only. . Not. . . Someone called him Rikkara. . . He didn't like it though.
[glow=black,2,1000]hmm, wonder why?[/glow]
Oh great, i've got skitsophrenia
[glow=black,2,1000] That's not very nice; I could prove to be a very helpful and intelligent- [/glow] lalalalalala, i'm not listening!
[glow=black,4,1000] fine, be like that. I'll be back though. You'll grow to love me. [/glow]
But I am you. How does that work?
[glow=black,2,400] Thing called self esteem. Later[/glow]
Well that was wierd.

He sulked further.

[mely]

Kyli stood in the doorway of the common room, staring at Sei's figure, hunched over the fire.

'soooo, time to apologise'
'but...'

the voice in her head didn't need to push the point any further. She knew she was being stupid. It wasn't Sei's fault who his dad was. He didn't even know who his dad was.

'I'm just being stupid'
'right on'
'would you just shut up for one second'
'but where's the fun in that?'
'it's not about fun. It's about me realising that I was a stupid fool to let my dreams get to me. they're just wretched thoughts that are shoved into my brain while I sleep, and I hate them. So there is absolutely no excuse for losing a friend just because of them'
'you know, dreams aren't all that bad
' one: yes they are, and two: how many times do I have to tell you to SHUT UP'
'at least once more'

[mely]

kyli took a deep breath, locked up the voice inside her head as tightly as possible, and then made ehr way over to Sei's chair, unsure of how to explain the way she'd been ignoring hiim for the past couple of days. She couldn't tell him about the dream- because then she'd have to explain how she'd been dreaming about his dad for months, something she knew he would hate the idea of. She couldn't tell him what she knew about his dad- he'd freak out. So what to say?

Before she'd properly decided, she arrived by his chair. "sei..." she said quietly.

[Tessiec]

[T: Hello Mel!
M: Hello Tess!
T: Did you know you are holdng up the threads me and Amy are having?
M: No I didn't!
T: -wacks mels head-]

[.magnarock.]

[that was confusing tess.. . .]

He looked across at her. Finally! She was talking to him again! Unless she was going to make some nasty comment. He chewed his lip. "Mmhm?"

[mely]

Kyli paused. She stared at his neck, then shok herself.

'look him in the eyes'
'that's it!'
'shut up'

She looked him in the eyes. Raika's eyes. No, Sei's eyes. It didn't matter who his dad was- he was her friend.

"Look, I'm sorry I've been ignoring you" she tried to work out how to explain herself, "I've been a stupid jerk, and I'm sorry"

[.magnarock.]

Part of him wanted to yell at her, tell her that just saying sorry wasn't enough for ignoring him without a reason. [Don't ya just love the new happy Sei? With five times more self worth than last terms one!]
But then he realised that she probably did have a reason, she just didn't want to tell him. Perhaps this Raika Tyakess was more significant to her past than just a mass murderer. He stopped himself from sighing and smiled at her.
"It's fine. I'm just glad you're talking to me again."

[mely]

[more significant to her past? lol...]

Kyli sighed in relief, glad he wasn't going to force her to explain herself. Then she smiled, "so... having fun staring deeeeep into the fire?"

[.magnarock.]

[well y'know. I love the irony ^^]

"Not really. . I was just thinking about things."

[mely]

Kyli sat down on the chair arm, "what things?" she asked.